Wednesday, January 28, 2009

And now for a happy post:


[20:10] Saturnfly Babii: watching modern marvels on the history of underware
[20:10] Saturnfly Babii: lol
[20:10] Saturnfly Babii: it's actually interesting
[20:11] Terry Toland: XD Cool.
[20:12] Saturnfly Babii: I guess Hitler was apposed to modern day underwear
[20:12] Saturnfly Babii: lol
[20:13] Terry Toland: o_O
[20:13] Terry Toland: WEll, he *was* evil... >->
[20:13] Saturnfly Babii: yea... EXactly!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Three Random Thoughts

1.) I get medz in real life today! These will either calm me down or make me want to kill everyone. 8D

2.) When you read a blog with a team of writers (beyond one where they're multiple personalities like here), posting that you like A better than another team member on B's post is !@#$ing rude. You should be stabbed in the eye with a spork.

3.) I want to hunt down whoever thought Bert and Ernie were gay room mates, rip our their genitals and shove them down his/her throat. Sesame Street was designed so that the characters acted like their audience members, which are infants up through early/middle elementary school. Guess what? I took baths with my little brother at that age, and it certainly wasn't !@#$ing incest! Some families bathe same-sex friends together at that age, too. I think my mom had to do that a few times with the younger boys in her daycare because they would get caked in mud. Bert and Ernie are friends, not lovers. They related to 5 year-olds, not adult San Franciscan residents.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Furries at Skin Stores

I don't get it. Someone want to explain this to me?

Granted, I'm a shapeshifter, and I will have times when I got to a store looking odd. But with a fox face is waiting at a lucky chair for a skin that will not match their furry parts, I feel like someone is playing a strange joke on me.

And what the hell is the fascination with Rave clothing? Maybe I don't get out much, but a good chunk of what I've seen is modeled or worn by furries. I could go into the correlation with real life, but I'm tired. And I don't have to make sense here.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Trodden Dirt Road

Highlight if you really want to read. It's just me venting. :P

EDIT: I love my boyfriend. I am incredibly blessed to have someone so caring to not only protect me, but speak for me. Thank you, so much darling, for not only listening but doing what you can.

And thank you to the awesome people out there. I got my pat on the back that I wanted. <3 <3 <3

I have to wonder how many other people struggle with asserting themselves and not wanting to look like they're attention-seeking. Right not, I'm struggling to get over a sinking feeling in my chest because I feel like I've been looked over for my efforts (which I also feel happens often).

I don't mind that my ideas were used so much as I mind not being mentioned in the end. This stems recently from two places, and I'd rather keep it as general as possible. I really don't want to cause drama, as the individuals involved are very sweet, well-meaning people and I think highly of them. (Maybe that's why this feels so heavy, because of the value I give them.) The first, the main individual gave me credit once, but then subsequent parties did not give me any credit. Granted, I found it kind of amusing, because people basically posed themselves unnaturally and anyone reading it would find it strange.

However, the second turned into a competition I never intended. I honestly just wanted to see people's skills. Granted, I was once again mentioned in the very beginning, but the final hurrah really left me... well, with the upset stomach I have now. Maybe it's the manners that have been drilled into me, or the TV specials I've seen, but I thought the closing would have a final reflection on all things that made it possible. I don't care if I wasn't the one that stood out, but...

Well, to be blunt, it was my damn idea.

And somedays, that's all I have. Ideas. They're what have kept me company so many years when my peers shunned me. They're what make me who I am. So, it's not that I've been stabbed through the heart so much as a cannonball has been shot through my torso at this point.

If people read this, again, it's me venting. I'd don't want anyone to be unrecognized, I don't want a huge campaign. The only thing I would want is a pat on the back.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Thought Regurgitation

Ok, so I've posted to two different places on the matter, and I may as well consolidate my thoughts. Being as this is drama and I just got out of car trip that started at 4AM, I'm posting here. If you're new (and probably anyone that comes here about this issue right now is), this is just my own mix of meandering, semi-logic.

1.) It's the damn holidays. If you asked how people could trample a man to death at Wal*Mart and are now throwing anyone under a bus, pull your head out of your arse. Maybe you could, you know, for one moment give someone the benefit of the doubt and perhaps some mercy? Or if that's too damn difficult, take a step back and not fall victim to the good ol' American fundamental attribution error? AKA, don't blame it on the person's character but the situation.

2.) Of the time I've spent with Feo, she's blunt and not necessarily the best in word choice. I, too, was not comfortable with the use of the term 'obese', and as a writer of FT, I should have said something about changing the wording. However, I hope it's not a crime to spend time with relatives out of state as opposed to monitoring the actions of other adults. I think it's important to know, though, that Feo did not intend any harm. It was just one of those stupid moments we all have. And I'm sure unless you're Martha Stewart, your holiday season was hectic or had some goof somewhere along the line.

3.) I have little to no clue as to what is going on with the full-permission group gift thing. I've seen a little bit about it on FT, and I've seen some other stuff on another blog, and frankly, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW ANYMORE. I read SCD for any sort of drama fix, thanks. It's not something I personally handle well. However, i can tell you that I've run into this situation before, where a group member of FT - not Feo, or any other writer, just someone we find helpful - sent out a box of ETD hair with full permissions. (History on this is old; it's something being passed around the grid for over a year now, and LL has yet to really do shit about it.) Now, I could have flipped out, as I'm very much for the protection of creators' rights.

However, I also know you catch more flies with honey than vinegar.

So, I contacted the member politely, she explained the situation in that she *didn't* know it was a problem and had she been wiser, she wouldn't have sent this out. I then contacted an ETD manager about the situation, while Feo and Myria contacted LL to get the notice removed from our histories. I also posted notices and blogs to remove the object from inventories.

4.) Yes, Feo does get crap tossed her way for posting about free things she finds. In fact, I remember when certain store owners gave her and Myria shit because they were annoyed by the lucky-letter calling that was allowed in the group. Because you know, it's the group owner's fault that the damn interface doesn't work as it should. Now, I know when I'm in a bad mood, I tend to take anything negatively directed towards me and blow it up. I'm also a human. Guess what? Feo's a human, too! Imagine that!

I believe Feo overreacted to sileny's comment with the shit that's being festering this holiday season. I highly doubt the group gift accident has helped the situation.

Now, do I want anyone to lay down and die? No, I reserve those thoughts for very special people that I've had the displeasure to meet in real life. if I can wish for anyone, it's something that my mom often tells me: put on your big girl panties and deal with it. We're adults, we should have the capability to think things throw without throwing a temper-tantrum!

But what do I know? I've only worked with these people, right?

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

A Change to the Schema

This blog was intended to be my anonymous little place to gab about whatever I wanted in a constructive way. I have discovered that being anonymous can ultimately get in the way of communicating ideas and such beyond commenting on others blogs. So, changes are to be made here.

This will become more of a personal space. I will not be signing my avatar name, as I do not want to directly tie my avatar to what is posted from now on. Because future content will probably be fairly 'dear diary' and emo in nature, rather than fully thought out and incorporating logic.

Each writer is intended to be a different reflection of myself, so there may still be odd posts under different authors. It's a quirk I have. But all in all, this is not a place of reason and should not be taken to heart or seriously. Especially if I'm ranting.

Relevant posts will be posted to my new, productive blog that is not anonymous.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

From the ASpiRE! Blog:

You Are Invited ...
Duality, Inc. is kicking off the simultaneous release of ShopLine (our new shopping resource) and the relaunch of Aspire Magazine with a "white party" on Aspire Isle this Saturday, August 2nd at 7:00 pm SLT. These are exciting times for Duality, Inc! Put on your finest white fashions, grab a friend and help us celebrate!

Party-goers will receive the free ShopLine HUD (a tool that will completely revolutionize the way you shop in Second Life), a copy of Aspire Magazine Issue 1, many generous complimentary gifts from the diverse and talented designers housed on Aspire Isle - and be eligible for a wide variety of prizes to be given away throughout the evening.

See you on Saturday!

Ofelia Laval - Associate Editor, Aspire Magazine
(on behalf of Duality, Inc. Management)

Being a new ASpiRE! fangirl, I had to go to the event (and drag my partner along)! Thankfully, RL was slow enough Saturday evening for both of us that we were able to swing down to Aspire Island for their 'white party'.

Ran into a crisis that almost kept us from going: I didn't have anything white! I mean, yeah, I had silver and cream, but nothing white-white! (Of course, now I realize I'm a big boob, as I had previously bought a new caLLie cLine cruise line set, but the sweet Ms. Cline didn't notice her transactions or was saving my face. XD ) Anyways, I was feeling really down, and then I got a notice through the CAL GAL group that the party was still going, people could actually still get in, and their were complimentary gifts. Sentrosi then encouraged me to go pick up something, and further indulged me by going over to Nicky Ree. I gleefully picked up the Lady Aurora in ivory white, then dressed him in the black and white Lord Darcy set. And for those absolutely curious, yes, their will probably be some Austen-ness afoot in Sordoh. Lathering on the rest of the white, we then teleported over.

Ashia Tomsen of the Free*Style blog (and probably a few other important things) was the first to greet us and make us oddballs feel welcome. Got to love a lady in goat boots. She got us all animated into the dance and was very cool the whole evening.

Other big names included the lovely Callie Cline, who showered love and gifts upon the Cal Gals in attendance; the talented Sheltered Heart of House of Heart and Bewitched Hair; Bianca Darling, one of the original founders of ASpiRE! (with Trina Noland, who created SL Go-See); and of course Ofelia Laval, the associate editor of the relaunched publication.

Sentrosi and I, naturally, were little hams and cracked jokes, starting off with Sentrosi dressing in his Casa del Shay tighty-whities instead of the full suit. It was all downhill from there.

I'm not exactly sure who the DJ was, and the music wasn't exactly my taste, but I made sure to tip him a little bit for his hard work. I'm sure Duality made a fine selection, and everyone seemed to be really enjoying themselves, especially with the 'stick it to the pimp' song.

Of course, taking pictures with high resolution and even just having access to the play button can cause me to crash... and I did. So, I came back and quite a few people were Ruthed (I haven't updated to the new viewer yet, and I don't plan on it any time soon).

Overall, we really enjoyed ourselves. I know I have to shoot my outfit in the future, as it was really stunning in my eyes. Inspired by Aspire, I guess. :P

I'd say the only detracting factor was that I had to pause on a hair quest to come over... which isn't the worst thing in the world.

The evening turned into a glorious night for us, for not only did we get to let loose socially, have a reason to buy amazing outfits and grab some swag, but we got our new terraform raw-file in place! The glee factor was just more than I can describe.

Now, if only I can catch up on the sleep I missed because I've been overloaded with happy-juice. :P